read Prozac Nation. esp if you suspect you're depressed. of course..i laugh too much to be clinically depressed...but some things Elizabeth Wurtzel talks abt ring a bell. nothing she did was ever enough for her parents (ditto!). she was sure her parents loved her in their own ways, but it was somewhat conditional (ditto!). she never truly felt loved (ditto!) until rafe came along. of course..i'm not as clingy to jason..but it's true..i'm emotionally high maintenance. i need to be told somebody loves me for me, not cos i do well in sch, not cos it's obligatory to love me. i quote from the book, 'Anytime your kids kill you, you are at least partly to blame.' how appropriate.
